Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Lessons From Job

           Job is a difficult book for Christians to read.  We really don't want to identify with Job; it is terrifying to think that something like Job's sufferings might come upon us.   I know I think a lot about suffering these days, and part of me wants to say, "Enough already! Think happy thoughts!"  I could put on a smile, declare myself blessed, cross my fingers and hope like everything that I have tasted the worst that will come my way in this life.  But I'm no fool, and God put the book of Job in the Bible for a reason.  He has something to say to His people about suffering and we need to know what it is.  So I determined to "gird up my loins like a man" and listen to His instruction. 
           A lot is said about God by Job and his friends who have come to "comfort" him in his misery, some true, some not true.  When the first wave of storms hits Job, he worships, aknowledging that everything good that he has received is from God and that it is God's to take away if He chooses.  But as the waves continue to crash down in Job's life, he begins to waver in his confidence.  His final appeal goes something like this:  "I don’t deserve this!  I was once a man of honor, who provided for those less fortunate, for the widows and the orphans.  I was a man of justice, honored by young men and old men alike.  People listened to me and respected me.  Now, men who aren't worthy to take care of my dogs are laughing at me.  I have become the subject of their singing and mockery.  How is this fair?  What have I done to deserve this?  God, you owe me an explanation!" 
            As Job laments his miserable condition, I am reminded of another man of honor and reputation who was treated as less than a dog by people infinitely inferior to Him.  No matter how far Job has descended in the eyes of his fellow man, it cannot compare with the Son of God, condescending to leave His throne and glory to become a mere man, submitting His infinite power and might to the confines of a human body. Mocked and rejected by men not worthy even to  look upon Him, He submitted Himself to imprisonment, beatings, scourging, shameful crucifixion and death, in order to bring glory to the Father by obediently purchasing salvation with His own blood for His people.  Compared to the glory of Christ, we are less that the lowest worm, yet He became like one of us in order to save us. 
            So when I, like Job, am tempted to protest my circumstances, claiming that God is not being fair, that He is not giving me what I deserve, I have to ask myself, does my humiliation exceed the humiliation of the Son of God who gave up His throne in heaven to become a man and die a shameful death on the cross in my place? Have I been treated more unjustly than the Son of God who, though He was fully God and lived in perfect obedience to the Father, was put to death as a blasphemer and law breaker?  How can I object to harsh treatment from my fellow man, or to being unjustly accused, when I see my Savior  being beaten beyond recognition for my sins against a holy God and going willingly to die upon a cross with my name on it?  Just as God’s revelation and reminder to Job of His power, His justice, His sovereignty shut Job’s mouth, the cross of Christ silences me.  I should bow my head in humble acknowledgment that God has done the unthinkable for me.  He has subjected the only One Man who ever walked blamelessly before Him in perfect, joyful obedience, to a shameful, humiliating, undeserved death on a cross.
             The book of Job is not just an ancient story about a man who goes from riches to rags then back to riches.  It points us to the future suffering of the Messiah, who exchanged the glory of heaven for a lowly and humble life on earth. Through His death and resurrection, He purchased salvation and glory for His own, then ascended to the eternal glory of His Father's right hand.  It teaches us that our suffering is never meaningless because we experience it in the light of Christ's suffering which brought forth the glory of God and the fruit of our salvation.  

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Mother's Day Mourning

     Mother's Day is a day of mixed blessings for me.  For the past seventeen years, Mother's Day has been a reminder that a piece of our family is missing.  Maleigh Ellen James was born on February 21, 1995, twelve weeks before she was due.  She lived a short five-and-a-half weeks, confined to an incubator in the Regional Neonatal Intensive Care Unit at UAB Hospital.  Although she was considered a "garden variety" preemie and thrived for the first few weeks of her life, she succumbed to a gastrointestinal disease called necrotizing enterocolitis (NEC).  For several years I resented that the designated day for decorating the cemetery was Mother's Day.  I didn't want to be reminded that my daughter was not with us on a day when I should be enjoying the gift of my own mother and the blessing or our other four children. 
     Time has certainly taken care of some of the pain of losing a child, but there will always be an empty place in my heart.  I used to think of all the things Maleigh was missing.  She never got to come home and be a part of our family.  We have no family photos with her.  She never learned to walk or run or dance or sing.  She was not cuddled and kissed.  We had to scrub and sanitize our hands just to touch her in the incubator.  The few times we got to hold her, she was so wrapped up in blankets we almost couldn't see her face.  These are things that I miss.  But I can't read God's Word and grieve for Maleigh's sake.  Maleigh isn't missing anything in this world.  She isn't missing out on my parenting.  She is in the presence of her perfect Heavenly Father.  She is not alone.  She is with Jesus and a host of loved ones who have gone on before her.
     The good things of this life that Maleigh has missed, like childhood friends, family relationships, marriage and  children, these are meant to give us a tiny taste of what our eternal home will be like, where we will live in perfect unhindered relationship with our Savior and with one another.  Family on earth is just a foretaste of what the family of God will be for eternity.  Some might say her death was tragic, that she died before she had a chance to live, but I know better. "For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain."  

Friday, May 11, 2012

A Beginning

            My husband has been encouraging me to start a blog for quite some time, so I am taking his advice and bringing my journaling into the 21st Century.  Like most people, my life has been a journey of joys and sorrows.  Now in my midlife years, I find myself thinking a lot about how God has used the events of my life to mold and shape me.  And I do believe He is using absolutely everything that has ever happened to me for His purpose and glory.  I find the words of Joseph Gilmore’s hymn an apt description of my life.
                                        Sometimes ’mid scenes of deepest gloom,
                                        Sometimes where Eden’s bowers bloom,
                                        By waters still, o’er troubled sea,
                                        Still ’tis His hand that leadeth me.
            As I explore some of the major and not-so-major events of my life and what I have learned about myself and about God through them, I hope to trace the hand of God and His redemptive purposes in my own story.